Speckles n Spectrum

back to basics seemingly-banal adventures of an eclectic modern muser...

"Learning from the Past, Hopes for the Future, and a Life's Journey of making the most of what's at hand."

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Tis the 21st century
Baby boomers, millenials and whatnots
Gen X, Y, and Z
Reciting alphabets are we?
Butterflies in my tummy are dancing like nuts...
Thy brain neurons are kinda connecting the dots while this EQ's attempting to tie the knots and that hands crossing every t(s), periods in all the i(s).


Drum rolls smashing every beat's pumpin, blood rushin
Eardrums breakin in this silence...
twas loudly deafening.
Takes my breath in a faraway stance
Got this tear duct swelling
The fantasies never ending
Cravings off the roof
Intuitions ain't foolproof
Gut feelings stirring up dead corpse
Good cop or bad cop?
Hell this is dope.


Are you some kind of brainiac
You are cracking the codes
It feels like you were that same weirdo I've met a dozen centuries unfold.
Pastlife, reincarnations and karmic patterns...
Cosmic entangling right before our subconscious awakening
Twin soul finally meeting after lifetimes of wandering...
Searching for mates, playing chess...
Pawns and bishops, horses gallops slaying knights...
Seems this is quite a checkmate.
I don't think I'm making sense...
Sounds like I'm still frakkin tense or most probably too dense.
What the heck am I thinking... I don't even believe in all those things I keep enunciating.


I'm too old school,
weird but you kinda find it cool.
At the same time I'm unorthodox,
Interestingly you like what you find everytime I'm unboxing even the strangest facts.
Are you out of this world or am I or we're just both out of our minds?


Where I am there's only rain or sun but you brought autumn with the feels of four seasons in this humid wonderland.


You've awaken the best parts of me, bringing into life a different kind of energy.
There is something certain in this eccentricity no matter how subtle I can't just simply unsee what lurks beneath the peculiarity.


I was complete in my solitude,
ain't looking but fate has its funny way of making our lives a comedy.
That kind of humor that creeps into your veins, we are jesters fooling around.
All along I thought twas a comedy but why'd romance got a spin into this suddenly?

Rom-com was it now?

In every jokes, every punchline I take the hit in every pun intended or not. Every frown, you think I'm fun. It makes you smile annoying me for some time. Making you cry, thought would make you whine, got you drinking but I guess you're not the only one getting drunk in this exchanges of sweet-what-nots.

Sweet nothings, that's all we have... nothing... that's all we are.

Dolce far niente... we speak but never really communicate, we got this morse code and a dash-in-between. We thought we connect but in reality we are lost in the midst of translation but still my soul finds peace in our chaos and thats the irony of this maze we are intertwined.


Yeah, I'm an old soul with a heart of a kiddo, an attention span of a five year old, an appetite of a wolf, an imagination as wild as the roses in that forbidden dark forest deep in the hollows, a mentality of a Mafia that commands like a whistler, swift like a ninja swerving in jagger moves inside a woman's physique in her mid 20s with an actual milestone of almost four decades but boy, in love I'm just a confused teeny bopper that's a real life late bloomer.



I guess I've watered my garden enough that bees and butterflies are flying over and checking it out.
Got everything together except I'm still messing it up cuz this girl's always skeptic when it comes to romantic love.


Sweep me off my feet...
I hear ye hopeless romantic woes.
I didn't lose a shoe and I freakin hate curfews
Hair's too short to let down as a rope
I woudn't trade my voice to emerge from the sea...
the mirror said my love affair with the sun made me glowing like a bronze statue too farfetched to be white as snow can't even be your trophy too
tho I'm lazy I'm way too busy to spend the days in slumber waiting for a spellbreaker with a different hue.



I'm not a damsel in distress
Probably just awfully stress
Not sure if I'm ready for this
But I guess it won't make a difference if I keep running away from probabilities.
Let's explore the unknown deep down the woods of uncertainties looking for possibilities.
Breathe in, breathe out
Okay, I'm gonna be reckless one last time
Where's that falls should I dive head first, heartless or headless, heart first?
It's hard to make them both agree when the head's too hardcore and the hearts too soft it kinda melts even in synthetic heat.
Gotta get my potions first and chant prayers in whispers off the air.
Are miracles for real?
Witch, take a leap of faith...
Just do it... waitever.
Hey, this isn't a fairytale, exorcism perhaps?
Nah, just hopeless romantic nuances.
Here we go again, it's almost midnight you are way too late... cmmon bloom.


Flowers are amazing. They make the world pretty and it's a great way to brighten any girls' day or make 'em fall for your romantic ideas.





Things get complicated somehow if you are dating an Eco-friendly, no-nonsense, simple and practical kinda gal. 

Once she laid eyes upon your bouquet of roses and tulips, her mind starts punching her mental calculator and rounding off the $ you wasted on this bunch. 

Don't get me wrong of course I love roses, tulips or whatnots but I'm the kind of girl who doesn't like unnecessary extravagance. Sure it's romantic as hell and it's instagrammable shit but I don't want you to break the bank just to tell me how special you wanna make me feel. Besides after a few days it will gonna rut and whither even if you offer it in your altar. Aesthetic BS only for show off, don't care about mother earth, it's all about the money, money kinda bitches.

Haven't heard about "Sustainable Living," y'all?  

The idea is only getting and living on things that you need just so everyone will get a fair share especially the next generation in terms of our natural resources. 

Pretty. Basic. Indeed. 

Boils down to one word: RESPECT.




So here's some tips for you. I'm gonna make your life easier by giving you a roadmap on how to pleasure a woman like me.


  • DIY food bouquet. 
There's nothing better than handmade stuff. I love effort more than the cost of your gift. It's always the thought that counts when it comes to me. Impress me how well aware you are (show off your stalking skills, oops was it called research?) about the food I go gaga over I might end up going gaga with you too, who knows. 🤷🏾‍♀️


  •  Handcrafted flower bouquet.
Up to you how to please me but here's a suggestion. Origami, anyone? Japanese paper, old newspaper or glossy magazines, metallic foil, cotton, metal scraps, fabric or whatnots as long as they are environment friendly. I'd love these flowers and if you're feeling a little extra slip a note, love letter, haiku, poetry, quote and even a song lyric in each one of them or one is enough. We go for quality not quantity, baby. Anyhow, anyways you'll get appreciated.




  • Edible Flower Bouquet.
If you weren't the DIY type this one will work too. Just get me a customized candy or chocolate baked bouquet. Cakes, pastries or desserts will be fine. But if you can do it on your own. I'm floored. There's something about men who can cook and bake that's making me excited. (Kinda reminds me of my Papa.)


  • Flower Undies Bouquet.
This might be a little kinky so I guess try to give it to a long term girlfriend just a heads up. I don't want you getting slapped on the first date. Btw you have an option of a reusable, disposable or edible ones. Your bucks, your choice. 
Handkerchief or face towels would be great too cuz your girl can use it to dry her tears of joy.





  • Veggie Flower Bouquet.
I guess this one is the most practical of all. Just make sure your girl loves vegetables  and cooking or you might end up sourgraping and bitter like an ampalaya later. Fruits will be a great alternative if that's the case. 


  • Spiritual Flower Boquet
If your chic is the meditating yoga-ish kinda gal here's a gem fit for spiritual warrior princesses. Get her a set of scented flower candles with incense sticks and lavender, ocean breeze or minty jasmine sorts of oils in a bouquet. You might just help her manifest the law of attraction. Who knows, that could be you.


  • Green-thumb Flower Bouquet
Okay, I get it you really want to show her how genuine you feel so you wanna gift the real deal. You need a bit of muscle flexing here cuz I'll accept a bunch of flowers on a flower pot. Yep you got it: PLANTS! I'm a zombie, that's why 😅

If you like a flower, you pluck it but if you love a flower you water it daily until it blooms. --- anonymous




***A rare flowering plant from an exotic place you've visited during your travels is perfect or wild orchids and "waling waling" in different varieties will do. TBH I want a black rose and a purple tulip in my own garden. Fruit bearing plants would be great too. Ok, anything edible is perfect. Isn't it obvious? I don't love to eat, period. I live to eat that might include you. 😬


Nine months you were in the womb
No idea what's outside waiting once full grown.
Finally they cut that umbilical cord
Freedom you might think is all that's worth?
Your cry echoes across the hall
Papa's taking a video capturing this precious view.
Mum's restless almost out of strength but a smile flustered in blushing cheeks nonetheless.
Tis a wonderful day to celebrate
an angel greet us "buenas diaz"
and totally it is.




Everyday became a miracle
It wasn't all fun but the journey...
twas worth all the sleepless nights and counting changes to make ends meet just to make you safe and sound.

You didn't choose us and vice versa
Fate did and it's not an issue.
We vow to say "I DOs" to the worst and the best and that includes loving you in your weakest and ugliest truths.




We fight and get caught in sickness and troublesome faults but we accept, improve and choose to settle in love rather than curses to divide our abode.
We stand united, bending not breaking.
Nurturing instead of destructing.
Celebrating no matter how small our victories.
The important thing is we grow and progress no matter how slow.
Trust in the process, we learn in failures not in perfection.
Open up and voice out your opinions without the fear of judgement or rejection.
Cry if you may but stand tall and fight even when you feel lost in dismay.
We learn to disagree without fueling negativity.
You got us, we are your safe haven.
Feel at home cuz HOME is what we built you and not just a house.
You are protected inside this four pillars of LOVE, RESPECT, AUTHENTICITY and GRACE.


We'll let you go when it's time to say goodbye.
Hoping that with your new found life you'll have freedom to become who you really are.
We send you off with all our love and don't you ever forget the learnings and values we have showered upon you, love.
Visit or say hi when you can.
Not your obligation but we do appreciate if you will, ain't forcing just kinda teasing.
You are all grown up so take care.
Remember to be someone of value cuz that's all the treasure we can ever share. Be human in this world full of beast, stay real and humble cuz we all got this.
Go now, love... we'll always be here, cheering you every step of your battles.
Do or die, you just gotta try.
Dream it, got it!
We live to fly.



When you think you know it all, that's when you got it all wrong.


Another day, another heart breaks...
it goes on and on and on...


Let's drive 'em crazy playing wild guesses in uncertainties deep in the abyss.


Keep 'em guessing...
... ya sure of your feelings?
Stuff that you're making
honestly it's kinda striking.
They're odd and intriguing but you frakkin got me thinking.
Can you stop this game 
cuz sure am not playin'
Is this for real or just part of a thrill?


Sometimes I'm confused my brain says it's kinda creepy but that other thing is freakin' pumpin like this shit is foolishly twitterpated.


The hell with this thing
aren't you supposed to be on guard?
But what the heck are you doing
put up your firewall pronto.


Missy, it's romantic and you are...
Shut up, I'm just hopeless...
Brain dead.
Logic's missing.
Id is relentless.
Ego doesn't give a fuck.
Superego is currently in the border of Niagara Falls contemplating to be or not to be? Actually that's not the question.


Dang this you are causing an internal conflict.
Cupid's got caught by its own spear.
This under armour must've been beaten by termites perhaps or some kind of virus deadlier than covid cuz sure is I'm tryin' to find a vaccine to keep my immunity safe from this wrath.


Hmmm... nevermind
I talk too much...
Time to slumber...
I'm his Neverland.











They said Everything that looks pretty is expensive but reality is you dont need to spend a fortune to look perfect.




The secret to being beautiful is through possessing a loving heart. A heart that listens, cares and shares authenticity in every simple way. When you start living in good thoughts your aura becomes a magnet for all things pretty and it boomerangs and showers everyone that surrounds you the magic of love and serenity.





I am a beautiful mess in the midst of this wonderful chaos. I'm a witchzard with a secret power.

You know what's my super power?

I can make cheap things look expensive and I can make you feel like you are priceless.




Money is not everything, a good heart is.

Yet never expect anyone to treat you the way you treat them... continue being kind anyways cuz the universe has its way to take good care of things that are really meant for you and peace of mind is always better than hatred.




Remember this: The rudest people are the ones who need love the most.




So if you looked like this and you feel better in most ways do you think it's not worth it if your heart will also be a source of beauty and joy even if they think otherwise I think you know better, ayt?




Like fireworks in a dark night they shine bright while the spectators gasp in awe and detractors shout their might and yes that's all they could ever do when they see you glow.

Sometimes when you feel like a mess the right thing to do is sprinkled it with beauty that is wholistic and organic in nature for somehow it works, kinda sorts out all the chaos within and affecting the world we live in.




Although I'd rather be the moon that sits quietly, contemplating all alone while revolving with the sun at peace on its solitary mystery but beautiful in every way.










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