A new me, a new approach to things. I tell you I'm into extreme sports. I love to physically dive in but I ain't into jumping off the cliff to a body of water cuz that's irritatingly uncomfortable for water gets into my nose but hey I'm not here to talk about cliff or water diving or anything like that. I'll spill some beans about a thing I dreaded the most so buckle up, hush for a while and let's fall into deep.
I know I can be considered by many as the most eccentric person they know at this time and I'm claiming it and make it more profound for y'all. With all my online activities: vlogging, blogging and all sorts of stuff it may not be too obvious but I'm way too private. I choose what I share and let people know about me and it's too prominent when it comes to matters of the heart so unlike any other girls I'm not fond of a romantic interest who profess their feelings out in the open for all the world to see, that kinda thing makes me cringe in a really uncomfortable sort of way. I'm low-key when it comes to my lovelife... hmmm I guess until I'm pretty sure if it is for real but until then you won't hear anything from me confirming it but this time as I said let's take a different approach in dealing with this trickery.
TBH up to this moment I'm still pretty much confused about this but I wanna clear all the clutter in my mind that's why I'm writing this down. Hell I care if this is just all in my head or there is truth into this either way I'm good. The day I've known the existence of this guy I noticed instantly our similarities then just shrugged it off cuz it might have been just a big coincidence but as the days go by the coincidences became unnervingly getting too awkward and it's starting to be someone who's really familiar that I've known devil-may-care I don't really freakin' know when, how or why? My head says something while my pride and ego have a different opinion so thus my heart and there goes my intuition. It's mind-cracking. I feel like I've been living in a different world all along so I was curious and I wanted to know more. I started researching and got the word: "twin flame."
We've all heard the term “soul mate,” but what about “twin flame”? ... The general theory re: twin flames is two people who were split into different bodies but share the same soul. Twin flames make soul mates look and feel totally disposable in comparison, since they're like soul mates on crack. Source: Cosmopolitan.com
Twin flame does not necessarily mean you are supposed to be lovers that's why I'm getting confused cuz we are so drawn to each other and I'm thinking maybe he's just confused as well about that. He may not
love me or I may not
love him... it might just be that strong soul connection that's making us think that we are
in love in some sort. Idk maybe it's just me assuming things. Yes, I'm shamelessly putting this in black and white, not my style but gotta try a different route everytime you'll never know which one will work or not, yeah?
We never really talk which is making me furious and overthink a lot. I'm too straightforward. I like to deal with things head on and I just don't frakkin know why this guy can't simply reply to my questions like WTF! I need answers and he's kinda replying through his stories and vlogs which I'm not even sure if those are merely coincidences or his truths for me. This sends me in a dilemma: if it's just coincidences then I'm one assuming bitch but what if those are our truths cuz that's a whole lot of coincidences out there that your freakin intuition and even how logical you are, your freakin brain just gave up and says that's not just coincidences. Obviously my normal self would like to protest but all bets are down fighting with all these evidence at hand is futile. I can lie probably and convince myself to ignore everything and pretend nothing is really going on which I'm still doing for most part of my day.
I'm an overthinker and I do overthink a lot about this lately. His friend sort of joke that he might be trying out my patience until I snap or maybe he's waiting for me to do just what I'm doing right now: be as blatant about it in the online world like what he is doing. Well, I still need my answers and the truth from this freak.
Another theory is that he's just romanticizing this connection to make it seem interesting for people to witness but I think that's way too low for him to even think about doing it because of that petty reason. I don't think this is true #justsaying but I'm rubbing it in to get even just a little bit (pun intended).
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In fairness to the guy he really did put a lot of effort in making me see things and how we are in a different perspective. Most of the time I no longer want to see what he's up to cuz it's creeping me out in a good way. I don't even know if he did a thorough research about me, we are just really way too similar, those are just coincidences or everything is just up for show. Idk anymore but puhleez enlighten me, gago!
One more thing this is really bugging me: How come your vlog gets to premier the exact time I get online and that's almost everytime, is that a freakin' coincidence or you are just way too psychic or I'm just way too paranoid? Damn, gotta go I just need to kill myself this is humiliating.
*** pride left the room.
*** ego just landed.
*** soul wanted to stay in limbo for good.
*** that whacko brain is still wandering.
*** that freakin heart just took a leap of faith.
This isn't me said my alter ego.
I'm just hopeless not really romantic.
Wine pls. so I can whine properly.
Sigh.
