Speckles n Spectrum

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"Learning from the Past, Hopes for the Future, and a Life's Journey of making the most of what's at hand."

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I’d like to share my 2 cents about Anne Curtis and Jericho Rosales’ movie: The Loved One. People might be confused why this lovely aesthetically pleasing piece of a story ended up in a lonely but peaceful separation. Things were going so well. It seemed that both parties were perfect for each other. No heavy physical arguments yet they started drifting apart throughout the end. 


Here’s my take on it. This movie is a fool proof of mentality differences. Ellie was part of the elite class and Eric came from the working class. Ellie grew up in an environment of affluence where she was well aware about the reality of life and social responsibility while Eric grew up in a kind of survival mode where the only goal is about gaining success to alleviate his family from suffering again. Always about family responsibility. There goes the clash. 


Eric thought having a nice job, getting married, having kids and providing everything for his family is all there is in life. That’s fulfillment for him. On the other end here goes Ellie wanting a family too and all what Eric wants yet she has something more in her: that nagging feeling of social responsibility. Fulfillment for her does not only ends in family responsibility but also includes a world view that she has a mission and a purpose to help others in her community and the world. The conflict started when Eric thought that the volunteering acts done by Ellie are only about superficiality cuz he can’t comprehend why there is a need to be of service to the world when for him his little family is all enough for the both of them.


If I were in Ellie’s shoes I would decline marrying Eric too. Choosing a partner with the same core values, morality and level of thinking is very important. Marrying someone that doesn’t align with your views even though they are kind will end up in a disastrous marriage.You will experience everyday for real having to explain every decision you are making, every choice will be questioned and that would be a misery especially for a freespirited purposeful soul.


In the end the smartest choice is to partways because that’s the right thing to do and it’s the decision that can give them serenity rather than staying together but gradually drifting apart because of their ideologies. I love happy endings but sometimes the best ending for lovers is to be apart. Love is not enough. It can’t give you peace of mind if it’s the only thing left holding you together. May you all find the love that’s aligned in all ways than one. Shalom.


 


Here we go again… remember when people started chanting in the streets “BLACK LIVES MATTER” and I went “ALL LIVES MATTER?”

 

Perhaps my subconscious had felt this coming and it is really very possible since we like dwelling in hate and instead of digging deeper addressing the problem from its root cause we like dealing with it when it is popular just hopping on the bandwagon because it seems pretty cool yeah?

 

Notice that I don’t even want to use the race because that alone creates division. Why are we hating so much? Where is it coming from? Someone who has a lot of hatred in his or her heart grew up miserable they say. The rudest people need the most love.

 

Yes. I am Asian and I felt the biased and harassment while working as a Call Center agent for almost 10 years of my waking hours in the BPO industry. I am not oblivious neither claiming that I know nothing about this discrimination. Racism does exist long before the internet did. Now, I’m not so sure whether the internet lessens it or made it worse?

 

If we are going to deal with it let’s ask those high almighty creatures what made them hate? Differences perhaps? But if you are in an advanced country should you be more understanding since you have all the benefits of better lifestyle and you are most likely to be educated enough to understand those differences?

 

What’s there to hate?

 

Because we are getting all your jobs from you? Someone said.

 

Without us most countries’ economy would collapse and we are only doing most jobs you don’t want to handle yourself for the most part.

 

What about Covid?

 

No one wanted covid-19. It was an accident and you don’t blame anyone for fate.

 

I know we all have different point of views and circumstances in life but no reason is good enough to excuse you from acting like a real HUMAN BEING and humans do care!

 






 

Do you believe in mystical things, fairies, elves, witches or even ghosts? I've been a skeptic all my life but this recent years, a year ago to be exact had me shaken and question all things normal or paranormal. I've experienced supernatural things since I was a kid but since it all seems like a dream more so a nightmare I just disregarded it and treat it like it never really happened. Same with how I treat love... just a dream for the hopeless romantic me.


Don't get me wrong. I don't have bad experiences with my relationships if I did the worst is dealing with an insecure boyfriend who always try to question if he is worthy of my love towards him. It seems that I'm the one who always call it quits when things don't go as I want it to be: a typical Virgo, I guess. 


2020 was the year of Covid-19, yes the pandemic that is still affecting us up to this date Tuesday, March 16, 2021 and who knows until when it will subside. It was also the year that awakened me into the realm of spirituality. I was bored and I started vlogging without any idea what I'm doing I asked my friend to recommend a vlogger with the same niche as mine so I can improve how I vlog.


The first time I watched his vlog I felt that sudden calmness and at the same time he inspires my artistic side. I wanted to create more and more vlogs. The more I watch the more I discover our similarities which is cute at the start but became unnerving at the latter part. Every time I post there goes his answers through his stories and videos. Bit by bit it seems like everything was connected. I tried to get the truth but he left me in his unread box. It's frustrating that the only person who can answer all the questions and doubts you have is ignoring you but not really. He has his own way of replying to my questions, dang!




In my despair looking for answers I started researching and I ended up with the word: TWINFLAME. According to how I understand this, Twinflames are two people coming from one soul that had been split from lifetimes of past life. It's like a hardcore version of soulmates. I don't even believe in past life, soulmates or reincarnation, my ghad. 


According to Savvas, “A twin flame is your own soul, shared across what appears to be two physical beings. It's one soul split into two bodies.” Digging a little deeper, Savvas once wrote of twin flames: “When a soul is created, it is split into two parts, mirrors of each other, constantly yearning to reconnect.”


They said Twinflames have a greater purpose in the universe and it will only come true once they unite. Is it like Voltes 5? Let's volt in? Kidding aside I'm pretty sure he knows about it. Maybe he is teaching me a lesson or maybe not?


There are days I doubt my sanity because I can talk to him in my mind. Psychics call it telepathy or 5D. I still call it insanity. 


Twinflame...


My things getting moved or broken, I don't know if I still have to be afraid since I'm with a twin spirit or maybe a ghost? 


Twinflame...


How can you explain when you are just trying to lit up one range but two gas ranges do once in a while? 


Twinflame...


I can smell, feel and sense him. 

The hugs and kisses. The intimacy.


Twinflame...


But wait, is this even real? Amidst all of the proofs I remain skeptical. I'm a Virgo after all. I based things from facts, evidence and hard truths. I need the answer of that dude so I can confirm this craziness I'm going through. There are days it is so hard to pull off because it seems like there is a force field pulling me back to him. How can I forget when every time I look at the mirror I see his face, those eyes staring back at me, haunting and capturing? Why do I have a feeling he knew me already before I even knew him? My intuition is good but because of this guy I'm starting to doubt everything but despite the doubts I don't know why I can sense that he is a good guy. I hope one day he will have the courage to tell me things I needed confirmation. For now, I felt I'm being watched 24/7 or maybe I'm just paranoid. All the tarot readings I've been watching just left me frustrated. 


What I need are answers to my questions, the truth and nothing but the truth, that's all about it so help me God.






In this generation where we break cycles and free ourselves from orthodox mindsets. Raising kids might confuse a lot of couples just starting out a family. We got this rule: Out with the old, here comes the new. 





Let's raise the new gen with out-of-the-box, radical but individualistic ideas. Paved them a future where they can freely be themselves.

Name your kids without binds.

When I say "without binds" meaning don't give your baby a name that will cause hassle in the future.




✅ Gender Neutral Names

I know this will raise eyebrows but hear me out. You will never know what your baby might turn out when it comes to sexual orientation. Giving them really gender specific names would mean a disaster in the future. 

Here's an example: 

You named your baby boy...
🚹 Hercules

... turns out during adolescent age, your baby boy is...
🚺 Meghara 

He got bullied much because people expect he would be manly because of that masculine name. He will forever despise that name and will eventually adapt a name perfect for his gender preference.

If you want to avoid awkward moments during your kid's identity crises stage be clever in choosing their given names.



✅ Religion Neutral Names

This is really important. Never name your babies from biblical characters or really suggestive names from any religion. I know as parents we want the best for them and of course we want them worshipping the same God, Yahweh, Allah etc. but you can only try and expose them in the religion you want but eventually when they become adults obviously they will start criticizing things and decide what to believe in. What's the most awkward way to change religion if you got the name of another religion's Deity, right? 

Example:

🚹 Jesus baptized in Roman Catholic.
🚹 Jesus wanting to be a Muslim in his adult years.

Obviously Jesus would pray and do anything to change names, Allah perhaps? Jokes.





✅ Non-suggestive Names

Got a name you think perfect for your baby right? 

🚹 Obet

Did you know that in another region in the Philippines "OBET" means "ASS"?

Moral of the story before naming your baby, GOOGLE it. You might never know if your perfect baby's name is a freakin joke in another locality or country.

Yep that includes checking slangs and Urban dictionaries too. 

Trust me, you don't want to see a meme with your baby's picture making his or her name as a pun.



✅ Century Appropriate Names

I cannot emphasize this more. Spare your babies for a lifetime of name shaming butt jokes from their peers. 

❌ Procurpia
❌ Restituto

Any archaic names that sound old cuz they are really old. No offense but your babies will be shamed everytime having names meant for grannies unless you aren't aware how kids behave these days. Anything that sounds weird in a bad way, old, nonsense, annoying Idk but I'm just saying be careful with your baby names. If you love your kids give them a name that they will love in their lifetime.



✅ KISS

Keep
It
Short and
Simple

Kiss it baby. Take it from me who's crying out loud for having such a long name. Dang the hassle writing your name over and over especially during kindergarten when you are just learning how to write your name. Geez. Believe me your babies will thank you later so Kiss. 💋

We procreate for a better world and what better way to start being good parents by paving your kids future beginning with a good name (literally, figuratively and metaphorically speaking).                                                      --- Stormy Krist
                                      





Tis the 21st century
Baby boomers, millenials and whatnots
Gen X, Y, and Z
Reciting alphabets are we?
Butterflies in my tummy are dancing like nuts...
Thy brain neurons are kinda connecting the dots while this EQ's attempting to tie the knots and that hands crossing every t(s), periods in all the i(s).


Drum rolls smashing every beat's pumpin, blood rushin
Eardrums breakin in this silence...
twas loudly deafening.
Takes my breath in a faraway stance
Got this tear duct swelling
The fantasies never ending
Cravings off the roof
Intuitions ain't foolproof
Gut feelings stirring up dead corpse
Good cop or bad cop?
Hell this is dope.


Are you some kind of brainiac
You are cracking the codes
It feels like you were that same weirdo I've met a dozen centuries unfold.
Pastlife, reincarnations and karmic patterns...
Cosmic entangling right before our subconscious awakening
Twin soul finally meeting after lifetimes of wandering...
Searching for mates, playing chess...
Pawns and bishops, horses gallops slaying knights...
Seems this is quite a checkmate.
I don't think I'm making sense...
Sounds like I'm still frakkin tense or most probably too dense.
What the heck am I thinking... I don't even believe in all those things I keep enunciating.


I'm too old school,
weird but you kinda find it cool.
At the same time I'm unorthodox,
Interestingly you like what you find everytime I'm unboxing even the strangest facts.
Are you out of this world or am I or we're just both out of our minds?


Where I am there's only rain or sun but you brought autumn with the feels of four seasons in this humid wonderland.


You've awaken the best parts of me, bringing into life a different kind of energy.
There is something certain in this eccentricity no matter how subtle I can't just simply unsee what lurks beneath the peculiarity.


I was complete in my solitude,
ain't looking but fate has its funny way of making our lives a comedy.
That kind of humor that creeps into your veins, we are jesters fooling around.
All along I thought twas a comedy but why'd romance got a spin into this suddenly?

Rom-com was it now?

In every jokes, every punchline I take the hit in every pun intended or not. Every frown, you think I'm fun. It makes you smile annoying me for some time. Making you cry, thought would make you whine, got you drinking but I guess you're not the only one getting drunk in this exchanges of sweet-what-nots.

Sweet nothings, that's all we have... nothing... that's all we are.

Dolce far niente... we speak but never really communicate, we got this morse code and a dash-in-between. We thought we connect but in reality we are lost in the midst of translation but still my soul finds peace in our chaos and thats the irony of this maze we are intertwined.


Yeah, I'm an old soul with a heart of a kiddo, an attention span of a five year old, an appetite of a wolf, an imagination as wild as the roses in that forbidden dark forest deep in the hollows, a mentality of a Mafia that commands like a whistler, swift like a ninja swerving in jagger moves inside a woman's physique in her mid 20s with an actual milestone of almost four decades but boy, in love I'm just a confused teeny bopper that's a real life late bloomer.



I guess I've watered my garden enough that bees and butterflies are flying over and checking it out.
Got everything together except I'm still messing it up cuz this girl's always skeptic when it comes to romantic love.


Sweep me off my feet...
I hear ye hopeless romantic woes.
I didn't lose a shoe and I freakin hate curfews
Hair's too short to let down as a rope
I woudn't trade my voice to emerge from the sea...
the mirror said my love affair with the sun made me glowing like a bronze statue too farfetched to be white as snow can't even be your trophy too
tho I'm lazy I'm way too busy to spend the days in slumber waiting for a spellbreaker with a different hue.



I'm not a damsel in distress
Probably just awfully stress
Not sure if I'm ready for this
But I guess it won't make a difference if I keep running away from probabilities.
Let's explore the unknown deep down the woods of uncertainties looking for possibilities.
Breathe in, breathe out
Okay, I'm gonna be reckless one last time
Where's that falls should I dive head first, heartless or headless, heart first?
It's hard to make them both agree when the head's too hardcore and the hearts too soft it kinda melts even in synthetic heat.
Gotta get my potions first and chant prayers in whispers off the air.
Are miracles for real?
Witch, take a leap of faith...
Just do it... waitever.
Hey, this isn't a fairytale, exorcism perhaps?
Nah, just hopeless romantic nuances.
Here we go again, it's almost midnight you are way too late... cmmon bloom.



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