Speckles n Spectrum

back to basics seemingly-banal adventures of an eclectic modern muser...

"Learning from the Past, Hopes for the Future, and a Life's Journey of making the most of what's at hand."
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They said Everything that looks pretty is expensive but reality is you dont need to spend a fortune to look perfect.




The secret to being beautiful is through possessing a loving heart. A heart that listens, cares and shares authenticity in every simple way. When you start living in good thoughts your aura becomes a magnet for all things pretty and it boomerangs and showers everyone that surrounds you the magic of love and serenity.





I am a beautiful mess in the midst of this wonderful chaos. I'm a witchzard with a secret power.

You know what's my super power?

I can make cheap things look expensive and I can make you feel like you are priceless.




Money is not everything, a good heart is.

Yet never expect anyone to treat you the way you treat them... continue being kind anyways cuz the universe has its way to take good care of things that are really meant for you and peace of mind is always better than hatred.




Remember this: The rudest people are the ones who need love the most.




So if you looked like this and you feel better in most ways do you think it's not worth it if your heart will also be a source of beauty and joy even if they think otherwise I think you know better, ayt?




Like fireworks in a dark night they shine bright while the spectators gasp in awe and detractors shout their might and yes that's all they could ever do when they see you glow.

Sometimes when you feel like a mess the right thing to do is sprinkled it with beauty that is wholistic and organic in nature for somehow it works, kinda sorts out all the chaos within and affecting the world we live in.




Although I'd rather be the moon that sits quietly, contemplating all alone while revolving with the sun at peace on its solitary mystery but beautiful in every way.













Rawit dawit
Ginurit ka sa kurit
Paghilingon ang panginoron
Huna mo ambon sana
Araachan nag tatagiti na
Pahuraw huraw pag inabot na nin uran
Minsan yaon ka pa sa dalan
Miski mayo ka pang pamahaw
Nagpipirit magiskusar
Pinaghuhurop huropan
Puntos sa balintataw
Masakit manambitan
Krus na pirmi mong pasan
Agihon ta na sana sa pagrokyaw
Sabi ninda magsarig ka sana
Dae ka nya pababayaan
Siring kan mga umboy
Na mayong pagkaaram
Pero bantay sarado kan mga langitnon
Dae mo man maintindihan
Arog talaga kayan
Minsan hararom ang sakuyang agam agam
Ruripon mo man
Siguro dae mo na lang
Masakit pero minsan mas marhay ng ipasipara ta na lang
Maabot ang panahon
Magkakairintindihan ta na lang yan
Sa ngonian mantiniron mo na lang natad mo kaysa pagparatanawon sa balyo mga isipon na bako mo naman.
Mabalos miski habo mo magrabos
Tara igdi ka pag pagal ka na kan gabos
Sigurado dae ka nya papabayaan
hanggan sa huri mo nin paghangos.
Lakaw na sa dalan ta yaon na sya duman naghahalat saimong mga panambitan.
Uya na oras mo dae mo na pagtumangan satuyang kaglalang orgulyo ka poon kadto hanggang sa kahurihurihan.
Salamat igdi sa kahadean.
Mutuninong na ang kalangitan
Sana kita man halat ta ipangadyi ta yan.
Dae ka na mag andam
Sigurado dae ka nya pababayaan.






Utak talangka
Katawang baboy minsan feeling hipon
Mukhang ewan
Asal walang pinagaralan para lang walang pinagkatandaan
Nakakahiya naman sa hayop na pinagkomparahan.


Pagkatao mong panlabas madasalin
Panloob na sing itim ng uling
Itim ng budhi ay hirap tanggalin
Ano plano mo bang lumisan sa mundong ito na tanging kontribusyon ay paninibugho?




Kaya mong pekein kahit sino pero hindi mo mababago ang reyalidad ng iyong pagkatao...
Balutin mo man sa gara ng dasal at pabango
lalabas din ang totoo...

Akala mo ay tupa ngunit masahol pa sa lagalag na astang santo pero ang kaluluwa ay nakasangla na pala sa impyerno ang galing mo mang asalto.




Sana habang nagsisimba ka ipagdasal mo din kung saan ka patungo lalo at asal mo daig pa ang kriminal ngunit sila ay nagbago... ikaw kelan plano mong buksan ang utak at puso mo?

Pagisipan mo lalo't malapit ka ng makipagtagpo sa manok ni San Pedro.
Sabagay baka matuwa ka na sa wakas baka sakali may tumuka na sa hasang mong puno ng pait dahil sa wala man lang nagpumilit kumapit nung panahong tila ikaw ay sabihin nating marikit kaso ang saklap bakit walang naakit marahil simulat sapul di ka talaga kaibig-ibig dahil sa ugali mong balot ng inggit at pagkatao mong lason sa mababait.

Yung kabataan mong sinayang mo sa mga bagay na makamundo
Ngayon ikaw ay naninibugho sa mga pangarap na sa tingin mo di mo na makakatagpo.




Mundo man ay masalimuot. Magpakatatag ka lang at huwag mapagimbot. 

Buhay ay mas gagaan pag ang puso mo ay mas piniling dumamay kesa pumatay ng mga hangarin at kaligayahan ng ibang nilalang. 

Maki-isa hindi mang-isa ng hindi ka maging paksa ng tulang ginawa para manggisa ng gaya mong mahilig mang-isa. 

Gusto mo bang maiwan na mag isa o sama ka para lahat tayo ay may pag asang magkaisa?







ARTWORK

by kris10na ☮♥☺ Thoughts (0)



I live to express my soul in all sorts of way...




I am a masterpiece... undergoing renovation not a Michaelangelo nor a Picasso but kinda strange like how it is with Van Gogh. Might be a da Vinci, who knows?  Just may be as eccentric as Einstein like the square root of pi but not really as genius to an extent that I can create Phytagorean Theorems or solve Conspiracy Theories nor rival Mozart, Beethoven or yeah I don't even have a chance with Andrea Bocelli for most of the time I just let my heart out and break cycles mostly eardrums every time. On second thought let's just do some salsa to release those pent up stuff and make art out of all these craps as if we all give a fuck.




I am a work of art that is a work in progress at the same time or maybe I'm just a fool triggering muggles to speak in Slytherin's tongue exclaiming Shakespearean sonnets in complete dissonance: What, how, wherefore art thou?

Perhaps a "Vitruvian Woman?"  

Oh, my dearest Kristina, dream on.




I exist to create not hate. 

This beauty will launch sheeps to conquer the world craving for individuality. Athena and Aphrodite might think I'm their possible love child if only two goddesses can mate then I can pass as a demigod with all the gayness on earth and weirdness of a martian, a heart like Peter's who wouldn't wanna leave Neverland. 

My dreams might still be lurking inside the Bermuda Triangle wondering when to finally walkaway or show up to stop humans from all the bad bloods they are intoxicating.

I got Katniss Everdeen's bows and arrows skilled for any kind of games with Cupid's precision to make everyone fall for causes that deserve some real kinda heart not just for Valentines.




We all got this mystery that puts us into an array, might have been really overwhelming most of the time but we do love in peace.

Looking like royalties 
feasting in peasant breads 
merrymaking as if we're jesters
Healing like shamans
Visioning the coming days like fortune tellers 
living like soul warriors with infinite voyages
Dealing with life like masters of alchemists.




Set the sail, raise that anchor,
Think about Columbus or Tinker Bell's pixie dust...
Darling, we could be angels on earth with determination as wings we are going to fly. 
Bon voyage to a never ending fields of pineapples and pies covered by hopeful twisted savage minds. 
This baby girl ain't lost just kinda wandering looking for her kinda tribe.
Hungry for souls that crave for the best things in life with values that jive right through the core, logic can't even deny.

Where's the Yin to my Yang? 
Ride or die, let's start creating our happily ever after.
Dreams with no boundaries.
Limitless possibilities.
The only thing that is stopping us:
The voices in our heads questioning our capabilities.




We live to drive.
We take a rest but we ain't stopping 'til we reach the ends.
In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit...
Yahweh, Allah, Jehovah 
Vishnu, Buddha, Karma
names don't matter either you are a believer or not.
We have one faith that is for all mankind.

Clock is ticking
The wheel is turning
Hearts are yearning
Keep on thinking
Continue building
Start innovating
Evolve and strive then time to strike.
We fight with all our might
Cuz knights win battles
Cowards lose chances




Which one are you?
A diamond in the rough or just one of those semi-precious stones not built to last?

Queens don't need crowns to prove their reigns, it's the voice that thunders echoing in vast lands though it was just merely spelled out as a whisper. 

Now, did you hear my incantation loud and clear?

Hush 🤫 but keep grooving. 




Mirror Lies

by kris10na ☮♥☺ Thoughts (0)


Nowadays, I wake up and sit infront of the mirror, take a look at my reflection and whoah I just wanted to exclaim is that why it is called "vanity mirror?" 



I keep looking... glaring and staring 
at the girl I thought I'll never get to meet.




I've seen her before... 
she creeps in my dreams, 
making me up 'til dawn 
thinking about the things 
she whispers in my heart 
that I'm too scared to feel
cuz of all my doubts and fears.




Now I got to tease her 
cuz we are finally at peace.




But sometimes I still think she's lying, giving me exaggerated optimism... 
that's just sometimes.




Like this time: if you haven't noticed 
my mirror presented my reflection 
like it's a painting: a masterpiece
 looking like a work of art 
but nothing really feels 
like anything real nor right.



Now tell me...

Mirror, mirror on the wall 
who's the biggest liar amongst y'all?
 My reflection's kinda tricking me 
or my brain's just too slow to cope up and accept reality that's why 
it's kinda making me think 
everything is just a trickery much worse 
might be some kinda sorcery. 

Wait, am I the evil queen 
or hmmm nevermind... hush. 🤫
You gotta bend or this needs to end.
Welcome to the boulevard 
of stained glass dreams.
Where prayers won't work 
unless you do!



I was three... I started weaving pieces of reality. Trying to make sense of things I know nothing about.




T'was my fifth year on earth I picked up that little charcoal wood and started making sticks out of lines and shapes that mesmerize me so much I didn't know when to stop.

10th year of being, my imagination wanted to run wilder and wilder. My colouring books and artworks no longer suffice. I need to let this whole river of words and ideologies flow thus before it explodes my ink ebb even in the silence of twilight.




Another year, another set of medium. From charcoal to crayons to craypas to oil pastels in bonds and feltpapers now, I've got acryllic and oil in canvas, crosstitch in frames and a brain that's plastered more so ever.




Everyone thought I'll never grow up. Always the kid that can never be tamed. Stubborn as hell even the devil would surrender.

I did grow up but the kid in me will always stay no matter what like a hungover it kinda makes me wanna climb a hill and jump off some falls I will never forget nor regret. The kiddo resides within my core treating everyone she meets with genuiness and every obstacle as another adventure yet to embrace. 




Life is an artwork, a masterpiece I'm weaving, writing, singing, dancing, painting, snapping, capturing, expressing and whatnot. 

Now, we live in dreams of mallows and blushes over magical creations like you and me and the world we dwell in and the paradise we are about to create. 




Miracles do exist, don't look further... it all starts deep within your heart. Let's volt in to make wonders happen. We dream then create our reality and the kid in me will continue to play so come play with me. 😜




















Bonjour!

Today I decided I had enough and wanted to retaliate to everyone who did me wrong  so here's my vengeance in black and white cuz I want my retribution in print.

Papu please open the hearts of the "CCTv in the Philippines" for appreciation. Let them see the light of gratefulness. Teach them to be thankful for all the stuff: big, small or anything in between.

So thankful that the only time they check the plate of their neighbors is to see if they still have enough and not to compare that they have more than what the others have.





So thankful that they celebrate each and everyday like a holiday by taking pictures of things they love be it food, travel, relationships, family, etc. and not just resort to the old habits that they take pictures when someone has a birthday or celebrating a special occasion. Let them realize that a food on their table, a roof on their head, a new breath everyday is reason enough for a celebration.

So thankful that they will be so busy appreciating all their own blessings that they don't have time to talk ill about anyone for gratefulness only means happiness and when you are happy you have happy thoughts and that's what you will share which is contagious so be a happy pill!

P.S. When someone asks: Says who?


ME! I am a nobody
but my name is Kristina
an advocate of values
in the 21st Century.


Teach your kids the value of appreciation and gratefulness especially for small things to make them happier adults because if not they will seek for more and more: money, position, etc. and will never feel blessed.

Think about this: It is not how much....




... it is how well you accept things and how grateful you are for whatever.

May peace and love reign in all of humanity.

Gracias 🌬💜





Roses aren't red even violets aren't blue.
They become a different colour 
depends on how I want them to.



In a good day they are 
shades of pinks and mauves.


When the seasons change 
or the moods kinda switch 
my roses turn into a cold winter snow.



Kinda waiting at the window for y'all
 to bloom and make me mellow.


Might be blurry but I guess 
that's how we always do.


I thought you can stay while 
I'm having  a cup of tea...


...but I suddenly remember 
there is nothing infinite
about anything we could ever be.



We wander and wonder...


... still there is nothing.



Well, nothing is perfect 
and WE are NOTHING...
so now, does it make us PERFECT?











A good day shouldn't be wasted in disappointments just because people are messing up with you. I've got the sunniest disposition that jives with the weather and there goes my pictures... just perfect!


Edgy outside, Mallows inside.


I'm a one-man team. I fly solo.

Watcha lookin' at?


Which foto is your fave?
This one for me is 💜


The sun and I vibe so very much! 
Rain puhleez don't get jealous. 😜




I 💜 the sun as much as I 💜 the rain because the sun makes me look good in my golden olive skin while the rain makes me feel good in every way it can thus both make a pretty woman 
inside and out of ME!



The sun🌞 makes me hot 
while the rain🌧 makes me cool!



Life is a little shitty but if you learned the art of BS you can make an art even a masterpiece out of that frakkin shit!



I am the captain of my ship you can't auto-pilot a bird that is old skool yet advanced in more ways than y'all know.



Color me blind. 
Ain't my colours vivid 
enough for you to see?


Y'all know that I'm fluent in sarcasm and for the benefit of those who always say that I should stop self-deprecating I oblige to explain further the title of this post. In layman's term it means that I'm good in peptalk, motivating and empowering myself even in the worst of situation. Are we all good now?

That's all folks. 
Hope y'all have a great day I did. 
Merci 🌬💜



Make Me

by kris10na ☮♥☺ Thoughts (0)

Ik I said on my last FB post that I will cancel all my social media accounts and I did but I still need an outlet so I'm back where I started: blogging.


I guess it is better this way since the people who will visit this blog are those who are really interested about things I post and I don't need to shove to people's faces a.k.a. their newsfeed my eccentricities.

Let me clear things up. I gave up the social media accounts because I'm getting tired of idk who, who are trying to control the things that I do online. Btw it is still happening as of this writing. The nerve of these people cuz the last time I checked I didn't sign any contract that's binding me in any kind of obligations following anyone's rules whether it is about stuff that I access online or post.

The last thing that I need now is another tyrant who wanted to dominate my life. I've had enough that's why I escaped my toxic family but I never expected that the things that I love and my way of experiencing freedom through expressions and creativity will lead me into another pit of controlling individuals. I'm starting to wonder... do I look like a 7 year old to y'all? Am I not matured enough to make my own decisions in life that you need to force things on me or maybe I'm one gambling bet that all stakes are way too high that's why you needed to redirect me every time?

It kinda feels like a tug-of-war game. The minute I decided I want something you pull it away. Why does it seems like you are recreating my depressed eps where you try to deprive me of the essentials that I value the most. I love teaching online and that's one of my passions yet you are hindering me from that commitment. I ain't the kind of person who wants to play all day posting Tiktok vids unless it pays me to do all those stuff then I'd love to. 

I love working and earning money because it gives me a sense of fulfillment for paying the bills and all my responsibilities but y'all seem don't want that. Ain't working makes me feel like a useless piece of shit that doesn't have the right to be in other apps. No work, no pay thus no play. We are talking about priorities here and it's kinda like you want me to get stuck in this situation so a freaking Prince Charming can save me. I ain't a damsel in distress and if you think you can control me this way... well, think again.



You can dim what surrounds me but there will always be
that certain light who will illuminates what is serene inside me.



I tell you, you can manipulate all the forces outside of me but I will never let you touch my core. I will respond to your nuances the way I want. You might have made a business out of me but what I do with my life is always up to me. It's none of your frakkin damn business. Live and let live. 

Want me to bow down to you? Make me that is if you even have the balls. I'm tougher than y'all think. You don't know me and let's all leave it that way. 

I don't have a clue what are your plans for me but I tell you one thing: if this is all about finding me a better half... nuh uh I ain't gonna sign up for that. Thanks but no thanks. I don't need another half, I AM WHOLE, a complete entity on my own but if it's a business deal... let's sit down, I'm all ears.


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